I failed again !!!!!

I failed again

I always fail in the subject I am most interested in. This time too it is not different.
The subject I loved most in school was physics. I just managed to pass.
The subject I most loved in college was statistics. I just about passed.
The subject I loved in life…chaloo, chhodo yaar!!!!

I didn’t fail in any case. The system failed, the teacher failed and failed my luck.
Now students learn what the humanity took centuries to learn in a class of one and half hour, and to prove get marks in nineties.
I never understood the logic of what I need to learn in that time limit. I never got my calculation right.
You have the formula, you have the calculator. Give that to any sixth class student and they will find the answer. But are we really panchwi pass se tej? What differentiates my failing the test from solving the answer by a sixth grader?

They say I think too much and that too useless. Some say I am inefficient. I have to cope up with the fellows who too failed. I fail to understand why there are different types of failing? Try being in books all the time and failing the exam. You need to go through to understand what I go through.

If I am good at English I must be bad a Math. Arithmetic Yes, Mathematical logic NO.
I am from a particular part of the country; my language skill must be bad. If someone studied Biology, he must be weak at Maths. Why don’t we understand that a success full neurologist is he who has the brain of a mathematician putting it to some other productive use.

The true love is where you don’t care for the rewards. My love for all that I love is genuine. I am spiritual too. Believing in Gita gives me believe of keep on trying to do what I love irrespective of the result. It is my labor of love.

But you need someone to fund your love. The university will stop funding me.
Thankfully my father never questioned my failing. My wife will certainly. She will
certainly. My father did not want to have a Biswajit as his son, it just happened. He had no way out Any other would have been just as fine. But she will marry me, the Biswajit.
She will want me to fund her expenses .If I fail there again, there will be question if there is something really wrong in my system that fails me.
Pray for me. I need to pass that test.

May I pass the next time. AMEN!!!!